Thanks to the nature of my work, I meet people from across fields - from doctors and engineers to models, actors, socialites and corporate head honchos. At a recent do, I ran into some I've known for years now. Welcomed by few, completely ignored by others, I realised how true 'out of sight, out of mind' can be. But while those from the glamour world have a misplaced sense of their importance (or maybe it's the snubbed me saying that), it's heartening to know that some truly value you for the person you are.
"It's been a while, we must catch up. Why don't we meet for breakfast tomorrow," he said. We met. And for the next hour and a half we talked. He was genuinely interested in knowing about my time in London, the work I did there and about this sense of restlessness that has crept into my life. We spoke about my loss, about dealing with it (still) and where I am today. Age is catching up and time and opportunity seem to be slipping by.
And then he said, "20 years from now, when you look back at these past 2-3 years, you'll be grateful for them. You'll value them for what they taught you. They'll make you stronger. And wiser too. Don't envy your friends who've bought their first cars or booked their first flats. You'll have yours too." Coming from someone who started out on his company's (a Top 500 MNC) factory floor 33 years ago to being a part of its top management, the words made an impact.
In this quick-fix world, I'd love a quick-fix too. But I don't see it happening soon. I'll carry on then, doing what I do. Or maybe not. In another time, in another place, I had it all.
Yes, I'm the smart amazing lovable intelligent lifeform and I smile and live in lies.